Leisure class

He liked having nothing to do like a child likes having nothing to do. 

Childhood became more than an idealization, it became a cultural value posited as a virtue in a culture where time is the chief virtue.

His understanding of history is that history is change, and that the whole thrust of it is in the necessity of change, and that his life history is of the struggle to make himself free.

It was difficult however for him to tell a story because he had so much trouble with time, time being the sequence of one thing happening after another; not necessarily the time that happened to him, but the time that happened to whoever he was keeping track of in his story.

When he started reading poetry he started to see that a poet couldn't struggle in poetry, that all the struggle had to be behind the scene, especially if the poem was about change, which every poem always is.